A friend once told me, “When life gives you lemons, make orange juice and leave people wondering how you did it…”

Most days I don’t think I can ever make lemonade, let alone orange juice…

Buddha once said, “Do not dwell in the past; do not dream of the future. Instead, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” It’s good advice, really… The problem is figuring out how to follow said advice.

Yesterday was a very stress filled day…

It was one of those days when I sit and wonder if I should have turned right instead of left, when I wonder if, maybe, I should have done things differently with my life…

I wouldn’t say that I hate my life, but, a good portion of the time, I’m unhappy with it. I know, if I’m the unhappy, change things. But sometimes it’s not that simple. I wish it was…

That doesn’t mean I can’t change small things, I suppose…

I feel like I need to reexamine my life. I need to find out what makes me so damned unhappy, change what I can, and do my best to accept the things that I can’t.

On occasion, when I’m unhappy, I reinvent myself. They’re never very big changes… Once, when I was in one of these moods, I decided to add a third piercing to my ears. I know that doesn’t sound like much, but it really made a huge difference. I also have this penchant for dying my hair when I feel I need a change. I’ve been a brunette (my natural color), a blonde, a redhead… Not long ago, I decided to dye my hair dark purple. I wanted to go funky before I was too old to do it. It really perked me up.

But I’m out of room in my ears for new holes and I don’t have the funds to dye my hair again. Besides, I doubt either will do the trick this time…

So I’m wondering… What do other people do when they feel unhappy and need to make changes in their lives? What do they do when they need to feel better about things when they’re not sure where their lives are going and they feel they have no purpose?