Has anyone ever watched the show M*A*S*H…? Well, if you haven’t, you should. The first few seasons made in the early 70s were funny as fuck! What the hell are you doing reading my inane ramblings?! Go watch this show!

Anyway… In one episode, an unexploded bomb lands in the camp (a US bomb) and, unfortunately for Hawkeye and Trapper, they have to try and disarm it using the instructions Henry calls out to them. Unfortunately, Henry is a bumbling fool of a commanding officer and doesn’t read them off right. The bomb is going to blow! Hawkeye and Trapper run like hell, throw themselves to the ground and wait for the imminent explosion.

It does explode, but not how you would expect… When it blows, it sends papers up in the air to gently float down. On it was printed a message to the enemy to give up, that they can’t win, to which Trapper responds, “It’s a propaganda bomb!” Quite possibly one of the funniest lines written for this show.

So, those who are unfamiliar with propaganda and how it works…

Take this poster for instance. I honestly have no idea where the fuck they were going with this point… So if you drive alone in your car, you’re carpooling with Hitler?! Yeah, see, when you think about it, this makes absolutely zero sense, right? But Hitler was such a hated person (well, by the allied nations, anyway) that they would use him as a means of getting people to do what the government wanted them to do. In this case, they wanted people to car pool, probably to save on gas, and figured the best way to get Americans to do what they wanted was to tell them that, if they didn’t car pool, they were pretty much for the Nazi party. That’s how propaganda works, more or less. You want the public to do something? Well… just make them think that, if they don’t do it that they’re an evil person, they’re unpatriotic, they’re against their country, they don’t care how many people die and BAM!! They’ll follow like sheep follow their shepherd. That’s how it works.

One of the more disturbing pieces of propaganda is Walt Disney’s “Education For Death, The Making Of A Nazi“. I came across this while doing a project on the history of animation for college… I know, that seems weird it’s a Disney cartoon (seeing as how everyone thinks Disney was secretly an anti-semite) but he was asked and made this animated propaganda short. It was… disturbing… I’m sure that was the purpose of it, to disturb viewers. They take a sweet, sensitive, innocent boy and turn him into a finely tuned killing machine. I added the link, but be warned if you watch it. It’s actually upsetting…

Hold tight, I’m getting to my point…

I had shared a picture on Facepuke of the Christmas Star (the aligning of Jupiter and Saturn) similar to this one. Actually, the one I shared was more realistic, but… Pretty, right? Yeah, Facepuke slapped that shit down in a hurry… I received a message that it was false information, so say their fact checkers. Mind you, the fact checkers often get things wrong (like the post I shared about the real Aunt Jemima that actually was factual). Hey, real picture or not, it was pretty and festive. It also wasn’t hurting anyone.

Fast forward to yesterday…

I was on Facepuke and a cousin, who swears he’s not a die hard Republican even though he blames everything wrong in the world on those “damned Liberals”, shared two different posts, both with the same content stating that this bombing happened because they were going to test the voting machines to prove (or disprove, I suppose) a fraudulent election. The company that was to do this was a subsidiary of a company of another company that is part owned by Biden and that’s why everything got blown to smithereens. This was followed by, “Still think we’re crazy?” YES!!! Actually, I do, not surprisingly! What the fuck is wrong with people?! Are you that swayed by Trump and his merry band of assholes that you’ll believe every fucking thing you hear?! Christ, this guy could have been nothing more than a disgruntled worker who had severe mental issues and suddenly it’s government conspiracy!

Needless to say… I flipped the fuck out in a post and have decided to stay off social media for a while…

It’s not unusual for me to lose my shit. I do that almost every single day. It’s not always warranted, but this time it was.

Listen, if your asshole “independent fact checkers” have an issue with an image of a fake Christmas star, an image that hurt absolutely no one, enough that you could take it off my wall, then tell me… Why do the same rules no apply when it comes to political conspiracies, huh?! That does hurt people, yet that’s perfectly alright. All the hash slinging bullshit this last election… every bit of it was perfectly fine to share on Facepuke even though Twitter actually removed tweets from The Great Pumpkin when he was throwing a tantrum that he had lost. So Facepuke is biased, I suppose? Well, I’m not having it… Hence the nasty post. Put me in Facepuke jail for 3 days; I won’t miss it. Assholes…

A friend of mine send me this in messenger yesterday. She said she didn’t want to post it to my wall because she knows I have issues on Facepuke… Anyway, it’s true when you think about it. Zucker the Fucker is certainly controlling what info we are allowed to see and share. So what happened to our constitutional rights, there, Zuck…? Yeah… that’s what I thought. And the faces here bear an uncanny likeness, don’t they? I think that’s the most interesting part of this entire thing. It really makes me want to start my own social media where there are no politics, no hateful/racial posts, no religious shit. Just what’s going on in your life, pleasant or funny posts and stupid cat videos. If I only had that kind of money…

Enough about propaganda, fear mongering and “fact checking”…

Yesterday I took some funky stickers I had and decorated my guitar case. It was so boring, just this plain black case. I needed it to say it was my case, so I did this.

I also went to a guitar shop looking for a strap. That’s one thing I didn’t have that I needed, so I went in search of something that would match the red of my beauty. I actually found one that matches my guitar as well as my personality. While I was there, I also picked up a few new picks to try out and I asked if they did in person lessons (the store it came from is not offering them now due to COVID) and they do! Not only that, it’s cheaper than the other place and closer to home (a much less anxiety inducing drive). Luckily, the one guy there had openings Mondays at 4PM. I start this Monday! I’m pretty excited! I’ve been taking to it well without lessons so far. Imagine how much better I’ll get with them!

As for the job I got at the record store (and couldn’t start due to COVID testing)… I still don’t know what to do. I mean, I’m doing okay without so many anti-anxiety meds (I’m down from 3 a day to 1), but that’s because I’ve been spending time at home and only go out when I want to, not because I have to. I’ve always gotten very stressed at jobs and I don’t care if you’re a customer or not, you speak rudely to me or be condescending and I will get nasty and flip shit on you. That’s… not a good thing.

Besides, I’m in the process of convincing my shrink to take me off the antidepressant for a while, just to lose the blubber the last one put on (which I can’t do when I’m on meds). I won’t be able to accomplish that and have a job where I don’t blow like Krakatoa on a regular basis. It’s a pain in the ass… I think I need more time to adjust to not having meds and going out when I have to and be okay with it before diving head first into a job. But everyone keeps telling me this will be good for me. I’m confused and don’t know what to do. But I need to make a decision soon…

So, until I do decide, I’m just going to go with the flow as much as I can.

I know… that sounds hippie-dippy, doesn’t it? Well… that hippy-dippy stuff has been helping me so far. I don’t want to lose that.

But it makes me wonder, dear readers who suffer the same annoying mental issues, how do you cope? Do you find that you’re okay working a job or is it literally the most obnoxiously difficult thing that you’ve ever had to do? Do you think it would be helpful or harmful for me to try and attempt? Can you control yourself around others? Have you divulged what the fuck is up with your crazy ass brain that makes you goofy sometimes? Do you think people should divulge that info? Let me know what you guys think. I’m really struggling with this decision…